Full of Half Formed Ideas

So I may have a bit of a problem.

What you see above are parts of four (yes, four!) different book drafts/ideas.

What you don't see is a fifth book draft/idea nor the notebook that has the start of a screenplay.

The other thing you don't see is a plan or a clue as to how to finish any of this.

I'm treading on ground I've trodden before, and so laying my neuroses and paralyzing fear bare on the screen is not something new.

What I probably need to work on is a new level of accountability.

I set deadlines for myself; I try to give myself rewards. I've started taking things away, holding the proverbial carrot over my head.

What I need more than anything else is a stick to be bashed over my head for failing to meet my deadlines and goals.

The issue may be that the deadlines are artificial; I'm in control of the deadline because it's not like I have an agent or an editor that is waiting with bated breath for any of these tomes to be finished. I am my own editor and agent at this stage of the game.

And, to be honest, I am a pretty lax and chill editor. "Oh, it's not done yet? Don't worry; it'll get done. I'll read it when you're ready."

I just don't know when I'll be ready.